Do you ever have times when you feel like nothing's working? Like your relationships are suffering, your job stinks, your car won't run, your dreams are taking a serious butt-whoopin', and your hairstyle (0r lack thereof) needs a major overhaul?
Do you ever have times when you just want to give it all up, throw in the towel, toss the baby out with the bathwater?
If you don't, let me just say I hate you.
Don't take it personally. I probably wouldn't hate you if I really knew you, but right now, my defenses are down, so it just feels better to hate you at this moment.
Out of all of my friendships, I've got misunderstandings and unsettled issues going on with two of my friends. The worst thing about it is that I don't see these issues working themselves out. I see the relationships dying. In both of these circumstances, there are some serious double-standards going on that I just can't overlook and they just can't see. I'm not even sure if we like each other anymore.
I'm supposed to be a stay-at-home mom, but I rarely stay at home. Can I get an "Amen, Sister?" I can't remember the last time I spent an entire day at home. And while I don't have a job, per se, the little things I do to help earn money aren't cuttin' it. Actually, the big job my husband Bo is doing isn't cuttin' it, either. Something's gotta give.
Out of our three vehicles, two are totally and completely on their way out and the third is seriously thinking about it. For the first time in my life, I find myself envious of people with new, reliable vehicles. I've never really concerned myself with this before, but now I'm concerned.
Dreams? Well, for some reason, they're taking it in the gut, too. I'm at one of life's crossroads and I just can't decide which way to turn.
And the hair thing, of course...well, I guess that's a perennial problem.
So I'm feeling a little challenged right now. On one hand, I'm looking forward to whatever direction the Lord is planning to take me.
On the other hand, I'm feeling pretty scared.
Oh, and I probably don't really hate you. Sorry I said that. Don't take it personally.
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